Daily quarentine log #1:
It has been 12 days since I have left my house for something other than run to the  grocery store. I have spent 12 days inside of a house that, even aware of its improbability, I am certain is getting smaller by the hour.
I am noticing things that I never had the time to notice before. Like how the dust dances in a sunbeam while my children are screaming blindly behind me fighting over the exact same toy and eating their 12th Go-Gurt for the day. I will vanquish those dust bunnies today. I will show no mercy. This I can control. And spending my time and focus on what I can control is the only coping mechanism I can handle at the moment.

I can’t control the craziness that has seeped into our current reality. I can’t control the fact that our country is ran by a reality TV star whose very actions infuriate me on a primal level. I can’t control the fact that schools are closed and schedules are upended. I can’t control the mounting anxiety I have evey time I run to the grocery store and see the empty shelves. Or  try and answer questions asked by a very anxious 11 year old. I can’t control what happens outside of my home.

So instead I will focus on what I can control.
I got up. I washed my face and put on some makeup to face the day.
I will do 6 loads of dishes, 3 loads of laundry and cook for a household of 5. I will vanquish those dust bunnies. Cuddle my feral offspring. And lastly breathe a sigh of relief, that everything I love so deeply is already under my care. No matter what may come, we will be ok.

My heart goes out to any and all who have been personally affected by what is going on right now. My babies and I are here, attempting to flatten the curve, sending out all of the good vibes and love into the universe. May we all hug our loved ones a little tighter and speak a little nicer to one another. After all, we are all in this together.